You smile and pretend that everything is okay. You have a job, good friends, family, your own place…so you should be happy right? Yet everyday feels heavy, like a struggle and you just want to be left alone. Nothing feels good and there’s this sadness that you can’t explain…it just feels like it’s hanging over you.

You have such a hard time making decisions. You dread that if you don’t make the right choice, it will affect the rest of your life. Unfortunately, you don’t just have a hard time trusting yourself, but you have a hard time trusting others and suspect that they can’t just be kind and helpful but have some ulterior motives. 

Sometimes you wonder if your childhood and what you witnessed between your parents may have affected you. Your parents weren’t perfect and they left you alone for the most part because you were responsible and didn’t cause trouble. But there’s a part of you that wishes they would have asked how you were doing or if they just would’ve checked in on you so you would know that you weren’t alone and didn’t have to figure out things for yourself. You admit, the fighting between your parents could be pretty intense at times…it must have affected you in some way, right?

You don’t know what to do to start to feel better. Everyday feels so heavy and like a repetition of the day before.  You’re tired of carrying this dread with you and feel incapable of making a decision. You know you need support from someone else, but feel overwhelmed at the thought of trying to find someone that will understand what you are going through and make sense of it all.